stubborn

Chapter 1-1

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Mu Siqin sat alone outside the clinic, restless. She really didn't understand, but it was just a little insomnia. It was necessary for the second brother to be so cautious and told her to see the psychiatrist. Not a small private clinic?

"Miss Mu Siqin."

"Yes." She looked up, and the nurse handed her a form to fill out.

"The symptom you are asking for help is insomnia. Please fill out this questionnaire first, and then bring it into the clinic and hand it to Dr. Xia." Mu Siqin nodded and took it, and began to answer the questions according to the above.

How long ago did you start having insomnia?about two weeks ago.

How difficult is it to fall asleep?Difficulty falling asleep.

Can't sleep for long periods of time?yes.

Are you satisfied with your sleeping state?dissatisfied.

Nonsense, otherwise why see a doctor?She rolled her eyes helplessly.

She doesn't reject psychiatry, she just thinks... Will the second brother make too much of a fuss?

The second elder brother who has only loved her since she was a child, rarely talks to her so seriously, so she can't find a reason to refuse. As a result, she appeared here obediently, and the second elder brother had already registered for her.

After a while, the door of the clinic opened, and a mother and daughter came out. The little girl turned her head frequently, as if reluctant to part, while the mother kept turning her head to thank the doctor.

This made Mu Siqin curious.She thought that when she came to the psychiatric clinic, she would see... In short, it shouldn't be such a happy scene.Well, she began to look forward to it.

If you can make children not afraid, then this doctor must not be easy.She came to a conclusion.

She thought the lady nurse would call her in soon, but no.

After waiting for a while, the door opened, and what appeared was not a nurse, but a doctor in a white robe.

"Doctor Xia." Seeing the name embroidered on the chest, Mu Siqin stood up quickly.

"Miss Mu, please come in." Xia Yuxi said with a smile.Mu Siqin walked into the clinic.

"Sit." Xia Yuxi pointed to the sofa that looked very comfortable.

Mu Siqin sat down uncomfortably.

"Are you nervous?" Xia Yuxi sat opposite her.

"A little..." Mu Siqin replied honestly.

"Why are you nervous?"

"I don't know... I always feel that the second brother is making too much of a fuss."

"Well, Dr. Mu told me about your condition...is the insomnia serious?"

"How do you define whether it is serious or not?" Mu Siqin tilted her head and thought for a while, "It doesn't seem to affect daily life, but lying on the bed for a long time feels like a waste of time..."

Xia Yuxi picked up a pen and paper and began to record.

"What about the quality after falling asleep?" She looked up at Mu Siqin and asked.

"It doesn't seem to be as good as before. I wake up for about two or three hours, but it's not that difficult to fall asleep again."

"Has this ever happened before?"

"I don't remember it... When I was studying in the United States, there were midterm and final exams. I had them during the stressful few days, but I was fine after the exams."

"How long have you been back to Taiwan?"

"Almost three years..."

"Do you mind if I ask why you came back?"

"I thought my second brother would tell you."

"About the patient's matter, I still prefer to ask the client in person. The psychiatry department will pay more attention to this part. Of course, it's okay if you don't want to talk about it." Xia Yuxi said with a smile. Although it was a serious sentence, it sounded a little too much The temperature gradually made Mu Siqin less nervous.

"It's probably because the eldest brother is afraid that I will be targeted by some enemy... Has the second brother mentioned to the doctor what our family does?" Mu Siqin asked.

Xia Yuxi shook her head.

"Arms dealer." Mu Siqin said, with a somewhat smug tone.

"Really?" Xia Yuxi was slightly surprised.

"Well, so the relationship between black and white is complicated... My father passed away, and after my elder brother inherited the family business, he was afraid that I would be in danger, so I discussed with my mother and asked me to go back to Taiwan... I don't hate it, anyway, there is nothing wrong with Taiwan, the environment It's simpler."

"Are you coming back alone?"

"My mother came back with me. She stayed with me for about half a year. She wasn't used to it. She saw that I was adapting well and went back. That's good. I'm more comfortable alone. I've been rebellious since I was a child, and the atmosphere froze after a few words with my mother. ..."

"It seems that you like Taiwan very much."

"Not bad! I also studied in Taiwan when I was young, an American school."

"Oh? Why?"

"Father said you can't forget your roots, you must learn Chinese well..."

"Well, no wonder none of you speak with an ABC accent."

"Yes, we all studied in Taiwan until the ninth grade before going back to high school and university."

"But there are very few people like you who come back after finishing college, right?"

"Well, there are still a few. After all, it seems that everyone can and will go abroad now, and those who can't come back will try not to come back..." Mu Siqin paused, as if thinking of something.

"What's wrong?" Xia Yuxi noticed her pause keenly.

"It's nothing...it's often like this recently, inexplicably distracted." Mu Siqin shook her head.

"Does this phenomenon occur together with insomnia?" Xia Yuxi asked.

"It seems...it's probably because I didn't sleep well, so I'm easily distracted?" Mu Siqin looked at Xia Yuxi and asked.

"It's possible. Did it happen when you didn't sleep well in America before?"

"I don't think so... because it's only a few days!" Mu Siqin said with a smile.

"Then have you felt a sudden increase in pressure recently or has anything special happened?"

"No! On the contrary, there are a few more good customers!"

"Guest? It says you are a makeup artist..."

"That's right, it was hard when I first came back, but now it's all about customers introducing new customers, so it's much easier." Xia Yuxi nodded.

"That's why I have insomnia...it seems quite strange." Mu Siqin also felt baffled.

"Have you ever thought of a possible reason?"

"Could it be that the weather is getting colder? I'm still afraid of the cold..."

"It's possible. Do you dream a lot?"

"Very little, almost none."

"Recent insomnia, after the quality of sleep has deteriorated?"

"I don't have any memory... Doctor Xia's question, it seems that I really, really rarely dream... I can't remember a single dream in my head."

"If you were not woken up while dreaming, or fell into a deep sleep afterwards, it would be difficult to remember." Xia Yuxi said while continuing to record what Mu Siqin said.

"That's right...then what should we do now? I can't seem to find the reason..." Mu Siqin looked at Xia Yuxi and asked.

"I'll prescribe some medicine to relax your nerves and muscles first..."

"Do I have to take it? I really hate taking medicine." Mu Siqin frowned and asked.

"If you don't mind continuing to waste time in bed, you don't need to eat; if you want to fall asleep efficiently, this may help you." Xia Yuxi continued to write in the medical record.

"Oh, okay, I see, thank you, Dr. Xia."

"I hope you can come back to the clinic in a month to see if the condition has improved or worsened."

"Oh..." Mu Siqin was a little unwilling.

"No force, it's okay if you don't want to. Nonewsisgoodnews."

"Don't worry, you will see me again, the second brother will definitely remind me very conscientiously..." Mu Siqin said helplessly.

Xia Yuxi nodded with a smile and said nothing more.

"Then, is this all right for today?"

"Well, just wait and get the prescription slip and go to the next door to get the medicine."

"Okay! Thank you, Dr. Xia, see you next time!" Mu Siqin waved with a smile and left the clinic.

After Xia Yuxi made sure that she had left, she returned to her desk and took out a stack of medical records from the drawer, which were sent to her by Mu Siwei from the United States... She used to think that Mu Siwei was a doctor who couldn't figure out the situation because of this incident , how could she leak the medical records without authorization, but after Mu Siwei's earnest request, she accepted it and read it.

After reading it, she fully understood why Mu Siwei made such a decision.

If it were her, she would do the same.

She remembered the first time she read it, she could hardly calmly read through this thick stack of materials.Mu Siqin's previous doctor recorded every interview in detail...

She sighed, rubbed her temples, turned on the computer, and wrote to Mu Siwei about the result of her meeting with Mu Siqin.