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Chapter 33 [edit]

When Gu Han came home, the house was pitch black.

When I called in the afternoon, Shen Huai said that he would wait for him to come back, but now, it's past midnight.

He thought that Shen Huai had fallen asleep, and just as he fumbled to turn on the light, the light in the living room suddenly turned on.

Gu Hanshi raised his eyes, and saw Shen Huai looking at him with bare upper body and bare feet, and messy hair.

The temperature of the air conditioner was extremely low, and when he entered the door, it felt like he had entered a freezer, and goose bumps appeared on his arms.

He asked, "Aren't you cold?"

Shen Huai shook his head: "Sleeping wrapped in a quilt."

Gu Hanshi's head hurt, he took a pair of slippers from the shoe cabinet at the door, walked to him and squatted down: "Put on your shoes."

Shen Huai is very obedient when he is like this, with sleepy eyes, and curly hair that is more curly than usual, looking innocent and confused.

Gu Hanshi put on the shoes for him, looked up at him, and saw his beautiful jawline and clear Adam's apple.

After finally suppressing the pent-up depression for several hours, it suddenly broke through the ground and rushed back into his mind, all the way to Tianling Gai.

Gu Hanshi stood up, pressed Shen Huai's shoulders, and covered his lips with his lips.

The movements were slow, but Shen Huai probably really didn't wake up, like a wooden man.

After a few seconds, Gu Hanshi's kiss suddenly became rough and violent, and Shen Huai's sleepy eyes finally had unnecessary movement.

His pupils focused on Gu Hanshi's eyelashes, and he tried to find his eyes.

But Gu Hanshi closed his eyes, knowing that he was guilty and didn't dare to look at him, he only felt the existence through the temperature of the tip of his tongue like drinking poison to quench his thirst, as if he had that clear tactile sensation, and then he felt a little at ease.

After an unknown amount of time, Shen Huai felt that he was about to die, so he groped to touch Gu Hanshi's waist, and squeezed it lightly.

Gu Hanshi bit his lower lip lightly, and let him go.

"What's wrong with you today?" Shen Huai rubbed his lips, looked at him and asked, "What stimulated you?"

"Suddenly a little scared."

"What are you afraid of?"

"The feast must come to an end." Gu Han smiled, "Have you seen Dream of the Red Chamber?"

Shen Huai didn't like these literary things when he was studying, but due to the pressure of entering a higher school, he naturally read a few paragraphs, but who said it and what plot it was, has been completely forgotten.

Now when Gu Han mentions it, it still feels strange.

But he is not illiterate, but from the four words, he can also guess the general meaning.

Gu Hanshi is a person who has experienced loss, and so is he; some people's lives seem to be bright, but the things they carry are too heavy, they are all the same.

Perhaps it is because of homogeneity that we have been able to walk together until now.

Shen Huai was silent for a long time, and bent the corner of his mouth: "I will not leave you."

In fact, it sounded like an ordinary sentence.

Among lovers, which pair will not make promises from time to time?

When you are passionately in love, you can say anything, and most of them are spur-of-the-moment, but when you are separated, you are so angry that you tear your skin apart, don't you just choose ugly words?

But hearing Shen Huai's words in Gu Hanshi's ears, his heart twitched, a piece of his heart was like collapsed cotton, so soft that he had no strength at all.

"Shen Huai." Gu Han paused, as if he had made up his mind, and finally plucked up the courage to look directly into his eyes, "I'm sorry."

Shen Huai frowned: "You want to break up with me?"

"No." Gu Hanshi almost bit his own tongue, "I..."

He lowered his eyes, with a depressed expression, like a cowardly soldier going to die.

"Your father's matter was caused by Le Shaokai. He set up a trap."

He succinctly surrendered himself and sentenced himself to death.

"my responsibility."

"Oh." Shen Huai responded, stretching out his index finger and gently lifting Gu Hanshi's chin, "Just for this?"

"..." Gu Hanshi frowned, "It's because of me."

Shen Huai said "Oh", but his reaction was flat: "Shen Nanfang can't change eating shit."

He rarely said vulgar words, coupled with the overly calm reaction at this moment, Gu Han was keenly aware of something, and frowned: "You know?"

When he spoke, hot air sprayed into Shen Huai's mouth and nose, with the faint fragrance of mints.

Shen Huai's Adam's apple twitched, and Taohua's eyes were full of smiles, but with a chill.

"Nie Shuangcheng's girlfriend, Yun Qian, has a godmother with great powers. It just so happens that the casino owner used to be with her boss Bai in the early years. Isn't this a mess? Boss Bai spent some money to get him out That's right, this kid is so grateful that he can do all the tricks without hitting him."

"Le Shaokai is just a lunatic. He set up a trap and caught the turtle in the urn. My dad jumped into a peach pit. Once he fell into it, he couldn't get out again."

Honey pit.

Let people taste the sweetness first, and then they can't extricate themselves, slowly fall into the trap, and finally doomed.

"I'm just afraid that you'll think too much about it, so I don't want to tell you."

Gu Hanshi felt that his ice-like heart was being roasted by a raging fire. He wanted to speak, but his throat was dry.

"After knowing the truth from my brother, I didn't want to tell you. I'm afraid you will blame me, and we will break up."

He cut open the deadliest part of his body and let Shen Huai look at it under the spotlight. He also had the courage to break a can and smash it out of nowhere, as if he was angry——Angry with himself, he completely lost his former calmness and grace.

Gu Han thought, he is still a lunatic, and the traits inherited from his family influence his thoughts and behaviors all the time.

Extreme, irresistible, and unrestrained.

Shen Huai hugged him, and gently rubbed his head into his arms.

"I'm a loner. I used to have a father who didn't live up to expectations. Now I have nothing but you."

If there is no more him, it will be a complete loss in the true sense.

"You still have a lot of fans." After a long time, Gu Han, who was buried in his arms, laughed out loud, and looked up at him, "There is still a lot of money. When you get tired one day, you can completely Get away from your current life and do what you really want to do."

What do you really want to do?

Shen Huai was taken aback.

In fact, he doesn't know what he wants to do. It seems that his life has been driven forward under various pressures since he was a child. Now he doesn't even have a father who is not up to date, but he doesn't know how to go on. What is the meaning of.

Just like the "Old Bu" in "The Shawshank Redemption" who served 50 years in prison but committed suicide in despair after being released from prison.

Sometimes, he would suddenly envy Gu Hanshi, at least he has something he likes.

Only love from the heart and true love can be called a "career".

And he didn't.

"I don't have anything I like, and I don't want to do anything. Sometimes I feel that when I live to a certain point, I suddenly get tired, or feel bored, so I can stop."

These words were extremely sentimental, Gu Hanshi just rubbed his curly hair when he heard the words, and said with a smile: "What should we do? We are both so world-weary, we don't want to live anytime soon, we are still two men together, They are all public figures. If they died together, people would think they had died for love."

Shen Huai smiled: "With you, no matter what."

Gu Hanshi pulled him to sit in front of the French window, and threw him a blanket.

I lit a cigarette but didn't smoke it, just watched it burn quietly: "Are you afraid?"

"What are you afraid of?"

"In case it is made public one day."

They never discussed this issue openly, Shen Huai never seriously considered it, and Gu Hanshi... probably never thought that he would find an insider.

Shen Huai kicked the question back to him like a football: "Are you afraid?"

"I'm not even afraid of death."

The word "death" was already too sharp, Gu Hanshi's tone was chilly, Shen Huai's eyelids twitched, and he suddenly held his hand.

"Scared you?"

Gu Hanshi finally took a puff of cigarette, and slowly it came out from his nasal cavity, Shen Huai looked into his eyes from the smoke, like looking at flowers through fog.

Shen Huai shook his head and held his hand tightly: "I'm afraid you will leave me alone."

"I'm not that fragile. The hardest time is over." Gu Hanshi extinguished the cigarette butt in the ashtray, leaned over and kissed the corner of his mouth, "And now I have you. Shen Huai, no matter what happens, I won't let you go easily."

The promise-like confession was caught off guard.

The smell of tobacco is faint, lingering in the nose.

Shen Huai smiled: "You can remove the word 'easy'."

"Oh." Gu Hanshi looked down at the pattern on the floor and smiled.

If before, he still had doubts about "pulling Shen Huai into the water", then at this moment today, all his hesitation has retreated to the other side of the Chu River Han boundary.

He has long seen and admitted his selfish and selfish nature.

He is not perfect, and everyone has bad roots.

He devoted himself to watching movies, TV series, and different roles to understand all kinds of life, thinking that he can see everything in the world clearly.

But it was futile after all.

He wanted to be with Shen Huai forever.

All future karma will be borne by him.