Double sleep

Chapter 30 Parents

When Ling Rusi woke up in the morning, she was not by her side.There was a panic of being at a loss for a second, and the emptiness of being trapped in a nightmare, not knowing what night it is.

It wasn't until I heard my mother's heroic laughter in the living room, and unexpectedly soft echoing voices came into the bedroom, that the heart that was suspended in mid-air and beating without rhythm returned steadily to the atrium.

She walked out of the bedroom and saw that she was sitting on the sofa side by side with her mother, and her father was preparing breakfast in the kitchen.

Mom's face was smiling like a big morning glory, she didn't know what she was laughing at.The left hand held Ran Ran's hand on his knee, and his right hand patted the back of Ran Ran's hand affectionately.

The mother said: "The little girl is so handsome, she is as beautiful as a porcelain doll. I wanted to have a son as beautiful as you before."

The corner of Ling Rusi's mouth twitched, and the back of his head was covered with black lines.What nonsense?It's all grammatical errors and logical illogicality.

He didn't speak, and nine out of ten he didn't know what to say.He just sat on the side blindly and smiled extremely cutely, the cute human skin of a "student bully" fit perfectly on his body.

My mother said: "At first glance, you are a good boy, and your academic performance is so good. It's not like your teacher Ling, who has never made people worry about it since he was a child. He has been against our old couple all day long."

Ling Rusi heard his mother complaining mercilessly, alternating with the sound of his father's clashing pots, pans, ladles and spoons in the kitchen.Suddenly, I felt hot in the eye sockets, and my heart was sore, and I felt extremely unreal.Scenes of the past emerge before the eyes, overlapping with the scene in front of them to form a strange and strange picture.

That was the third year that she and Ran were together, and the relationship had accumulated to a certain extent, and they both felt that the other was the only one who wanted to spend the rest of their lives together.And the most realistic problem in front of them is not gossip and gossip, but the close relatives who are connected by blood.

It was the first time Ling Rusi brought his mother to see her, and it was her mother who came to Tianshi to see her.At that time, I didn't think about expressing any attitude, I just introduced it to my mother as a friend.

As a result, my mother just saw it, and with just one glance, she looked like a cat whose tail had been trampled on, with soft fur all over, showing sharp claws, yelling at people to get out.

Ling Rusi didn't understand that although my mother, who had lived for decades, had a fiery temper, she had a straightforward personality.But he has never been a person with low emotional intelligence. He has never been so rude in front of others, and he is so irritable to people he meets for the first time that he is unreasonable.

After unexpectedly leaving, my mother began to rummage through her room, throwing and smashing things.

Total disregard for consequences.

At this moment, she saw her mother take out a book from her bookcase and throw out the photos she had put inside.In the photo of her and Ran Ran, both of them had their eyes wide open, their lips were pressed against theirs, and they were smiling wildly and joyfully.

After thinking about it, I also guessed that my mother started looking around for her things while she was going to work, so the hair all over her body was blown off at a glance.

This has been the case since she was a child, never saying hello and looking through her things confidently, schoolbags, diaries, classmate records, postcards, homework books, everything is missing.

When her temper comes up, she will ruthlessly tear up her classmate records, lyrics book, greeting cards and postcards, in the name of letting her concentrate on her studies.

Ling Rusi had quarreled, quarreled, and fought.to no avail.

It will only be exchanged for one sentence, you are all born by me, I can't read or read anything, what right do you have to ask for privacy from me.

Are close relatives sometimes also enemies from previous lives?

Ling Rusi let his mother lose her temper and throw things away.Sitting on the single sofa on the balcony without saying a word.Mom took out a cigarette from her bag, threw it at her, and said through gritted teeth, "Liar, didn't you say you don't smoke!"

Ling Rusi bent down to pick up the cigarettes that fell at his feet, took out one, took out the lighter from his pocket, lit it, and took a deep breath.Still nothing.

My mother began to cry while cursing and cursing in the room, wiping her tears and uttering the most vicious words between her lips and teeth.

"Ling Rusi, are you sick? You are perverted!"

"Ling Rusi, like you, what face do your father and I have to live?"

"You've lost all face. We haven't done anything bad in our life. Why did we give birth to a daughter like you?"

Until Dad received a call from Mom and rushed to Tianshi overnight from his hometown, Ling Rusi never said a word.

After the cigarettes were finished, I ignored my mother who was cursing and my father who had been working as a peacemaker, and went directly to open the door and go downstairs to buy cigarettes.When I went downstairs, I saw that the person who had been driven away was actually standing under the street lamp, leaning against the telephone pole behind him, smoking in silence.

She saw Ling Rusi come down, throw away the cigarette in her hand, and rush forward to hug him in her arms.The two of them hugged silently without saying anything.

Those years of complaining about right and wrong, tears tangled, you are the only light in the world, when the light is shining, I can run to you with all my strength.

Later, the three members of the Ling family were peaceful on the surface, and the family tacitly made a false appearance of whitewashing peace.Ling Rusi finds a gay man to get married and gives her parents the wedding they are looking forward to.

White gauze and red make-up, happy fireworks, full of guests, pushing cups and changing cups.

Mom and Dad's faces were flushed with smiles hanging from the corners of their eyes and brows.

Ling Rusi was sitting in the wedding car, watching from the banquet, neither happy nor sad, like an unrelated outsider.She is an outsider herself, just a role that is arranged in the family and has no choice.

For the next ten years, she lived a life of two faces.How beautiful and perfect her love with actually is, it sets off how ironic and distorted her relationship with her parents is.

She thinks that she has resentment for all of this, for the family, and for her parents.At the end of the resentment, no matter how calm the surface is, the resistance and denial in the heart cannot be controlled.No matter what her parents' original intentions were, or what their starting point was, she couldn't help but refute in her heart.

In the end, I was too lazy to say anything, too lazy to communicate.

Buy them the most expensive supplements, the warmest coats, and the best appliances.The words that came out of the mouth became only "okay" and "got it".

The blood that is connected in the bones is only the blood, and the blood that cannot be stripped away cannot be denied.

Emotional recognition and connection can no longer meet.

Ling Rusi knew that a few years later, when she graduated from university, there would still be an invisible bloody storm in this family, but this time, she would not compromise.

After all, the opportunity to redo the choice again will not always be available.

"Ling Rusi," her mother's penetrating voice exploded in her ears, bringing Ling Rusi back from her memories, and she once suspected that she would be deaf. "Why are you in a daze there, go out and buy some soy milk."

Ling Rusi withdrew his thoughts, raised two index fingers and pressed two times on his ear: "Isn't Dad making breakfast?"

Mom: "Your dad eats fried rice and fried noodles early in the morning every day. Do you let other children eat such dry things?"

The corner of Ling Rusi's mouth twitched, revealing a smile of unknown meaning.I thought: Heh, in a few years I'll bring him back, I'm afraid you won't let people eat even a dry breakfast.

She turned and walked into the bathroom and said, "Just brush your teeth and wash your face."

When I closed the bathroom door, I heard my mother chattering: "Look at your teacher Ling, you don't brush your teeth and wash your face when you get up in the morning, just stand there in a daze. I really don't know how to teach you." It's like a ghost.

Actually said: "Ms. Ling is very popular in school, I, we all like her."

After Ling Rusi washed up, she changed into her pajamas, took out an enamel bowl with a cover from the kitchen, and went out to make soybean milk.Seeing this, he was about to get up and go with her, when Ling Rusi's mother forced her to sit back on the sofa.

Mom said: "Let her go, you are a guest, just wait to eat."

Ling Rusi smiled at Ran Ran, changed his slippers, opened the door and left.

The place to buy soy milk is just 100 meters to the right at the entrance of the alley, not far away.It's just not a breakfast shop, but a tofu workshop. The hardworking proprietress starts working at three o'clock in the morning every day, grinding beans, ordering tofu, boiling soy milk, and peeling the skin.

Residents nearby would bring their own containers to make a bowl of soy milk in the morning. The soy milk made by the stone mill is mellow and fragrant, and the price is very cheap.If you go late, you won't be able to buy soy milk, so everyone will stop by to buy some tofu, tofu skin or dried tofu, and go back to make soup and cook a dish.

Holding the enamel bowl, Ling Rusi kicked the small stones on the side of the road as if they were balls as he walked all the way, seemingly in a good mood.When turning a corner, he accidentally ran into a person walking slowly head-on.She looked up and was about to apologize, when a white bun jumped into her eyes instantly, and her eyelids twitched instinctively.

"Little friend, how are you doing these days?" The tall man had a childlike face with white hair and a beard hanging down his chest, but this time he didn't wear a Taoist priest, but wore a bright yellow down jacket with a pair of smoky gray sweatpants.

It looks extremely, nondescript.

"Where did you come from?" As expected, Ling Rusi was startled by the sudden appearance of an expert, and took two steps back to distance himself from him.

"The expert is everywhere." The expert raised his hand and twirled his beard, still with that unpredictable expression.

"Know me?" Ling Rusi raised his right hand uncertainly, pointing his index finger at himself.

Now is not the world more than ten years later, it is impossible for her to return to the time point where there is no trace of the existence of the expert, not to mention, more than ten years ago, the expert at this moment should be much younger, why is he still a bad person? old man.

"Little friend, why are you so forgetful? We have met several times before, didn't we meet in the hospital a while ago?" Pull it, and when it's done, it makes a painful "hiss".

Ling Rusi stood where he was, sizing up the expert opposite him. After watching for a long time, all kinds of thoughts in his head galloped around countless times.In the end, she said: "Master Gao, I don't know who you are, and I don't know what's going on. But I know you won't say anything if I ask you. If you are contributing to everything, then I Thank you for giving me a chance to choose again." After speaking, Ling Rusi put his feet together as if unexpectedly, bent his upper body forward, and bowed to the expert.

The moment Ling Rusi bent and bowed, the expert had an imperceptible smile on his face, and his eyes seemed really unfathomable.

The expert said: "Little friend, you should have also discovered that many things, things, and people are completely different from the previous trajectory. But many fates are fixed. No matter how many times you re-elect, the deep love and the shallow relationship cannot be changed."

After saying a few words, the expert felt that his tone was wrong, coughed twice and continued: "You know, it's almost like stir-fried vegetables. This dish has a spoonful of salt, two spoonfuls of light soy sauce, and a spoonful of sugar. You don't have to follow this Put them in order, no matter what order they are fried in, they will still be cooked in this dish, and the green vegetables will not turn into braised pork. Do you know."

Ling Rusi: "I don't know."

She only knows that no matter the cause, no matter the reason, she is already here at this moment.You can hold your lover's warm hand again, and feel the temperature in your lover's arms again.No matter how many years she has been in love, every day she earns is extra, not a loss, it's worth it.

The expert opened his mouth and wanted to say something more, thought about it and said, "Okay, it's OK if you think it's OK." He also raised his right hand and made an "OK" gesture.

The original intention is to let you overcome the world affairs and let go of your demons in several accidents back and forth.

Never thought about it, but you are so obsessed with it.

However, it is indeed like your personality, unexpected, not unexpected.